bittersweet week.

why do i feel like i'm not focused all the way. i'm doing in well in all of my classes . except freakin pre-calculus. i mean, someone shoot me already. that class is sooo hard ! >.< there's just soo much to think about in soo little time. college? it's just around the corner. scariest thought i have right now :( just tryna enjoy every little moment i have left in highschool. and yet, times being wasted.

am i happy with my life right now? i guess? i wish it could be better. school's already a pain enough everyday. my parents be gettin at me when i'm doing apparently nothing to them. it happens all the time. i'm tired of it. & still, i'm still going through another issue that's bugging me.

i haven't been myself lately? actually, i haven't been myself in a long time. time seriously freakin flies. it's already almost the end of october? like wth. back in august was when my world came crashing down :( sad story.

what do i exactly want from all of this? seriously, idk what's right anymore cause it keeps clouding up my mind. you say things, i believe it & yet you turn around & do ALL THAT ? like foreal now ? what .. am i supposed to just sit here & be all i don't see anything status ? noooooo . not exactly . like, i thought i was doing good then ALL THAT buisness just sits infront of me ? i mean . I SEE IT . & it's not supposed to bother me ? OKAY OKAY. i'm not gonna say i didn't try because i did . no matter how many times you say to stop ... i really can't. k out for now . bye .