backtrack + what's happening right now.

wow. it has been a while & i have soo much catching up to do on here. well, my summer trip to LA & monteray bay was simply amazing. suprise visit to the disneyland resort ! it was amazing . for jamie's birthday, we headed to downtown disney & had dinner at rainforest cafe & spent our night there. second day, disneyland ! third day, disneyland & disney's california adventure ! next day, headed to staples center, where michael's memorial was held, & my parents surprised me again by taking me to the grammy museum ! they held a special exhibit decided to michael jackson. i got to watch his grammy appearences & got to see his outfits ! next, was hollywood. i only wanted to go there to go michael jackson shopping. =) i bought two posters & i was able to put my letter on michaels star. one of the hardest thing's i've done, but happy i did it. it was quite an experience. you can view it here. after, we stayed at embassy suite hotel. had marie calendars for dinner at the hotel & the next day went to monteray bay to visit some sunga family members from my dad side that i've never met before. it was a long trip but the pictures will tell all. click here. videos will be posted in the future.

school started on august 18th. it was great to see my friends again. but, my senior year didn't come off to the best start. i went through a very hard situation. it's settled, it's done. but still hurts. idk how. idk why. but it just happened again. people say third time's a charm. but really, it's not. first & second time wasn't that bad. no big deal. i didn't take it soo hard. but this time. i did, because i knew it was for good. & it something that i had to let go. it's something that i cannot control :/ no matter how hard i try. if you were in my position, you would understand why i'm acting the way i'm acting. life is hard. especially when it hits you like this. it's a big deal to me. there's no way of escaping this. & no matter i get all the help i can get. it doesn't work. with the last two people i got over, it wasn't that hard. you know, because. we didn't have that type of bond, we weren't that close . well, jeez. it's not like that with this person. cause, we're soo close & all that. that's what makes it hard. yeknow. sooo, for right now, this very moment. idk what to do .... i'm happy you know. i'm happy i said everything i had to. but, the outcome wasn't that pretty. the only thing about the outcome is that, he's still there for me. he's still there.




first two pictures of senior year.
i did take one on the first day for twitpic.
you can only view that if you follow me on twitter.