star testing / jobs / the studio .

yesterday was the first day of star testing. man, did i hate it. it was the english part. soo boring. & the passages were so long. & pointless. it was from 8:00am-11:15am. with only one break. & i hate how it's in 3rd period. i absoloutly hate that class. cause, i got no one really to talk to. gaaaaay, i know. the rest of the day was coo tho. we got out at 12:25 tho. [: that's a pluuuus. was supposed to stay after school with cj, roy, jeremy & them, but couldn't. no ride home. sorry cj, he was depending on me tho. after school, kicked it at my house with cj & paulina. fun as always :D

so i got to school at 8, when i coulda stayed home cause sophomores had to take their science star test from 8-10. & all other grades were in the gym. yes, including me. haha. i sat in the gym for 2 hours, with all my freshmens tho. [: quite chillllll tho. chilled, watched 'em break/jerk, play basketball. hahaha.

i'm currently in fifth period, photography. then after is second, sixth, then lunch, then home. plans after school? idek yet. maybe another kickit, but i'm kinda tired. i wanna take a nap when i get home.

so anyways, i've been thinkin bout getting a job. in the summer tho. my mom asked if i wanted to go to a job fair thing to look for a job, but i said no. idk why tho ! i know there was a reason i needed a job, but when i didn't think of it when i said no. i need it to raise money for my dance. okay, i miss the studio so bad right? & it's starting again may 5th. 200 dollars tho, kidding me right? no way. my parents are on a budget & it's so short notice already. but, audition's are in august for company. & last year, my mom said i can audition when i'm a senior. & this summer, i start my senior year. right? it's free to audition, but ! if i make it, it's 130 dollars a month. on top of that, traveling, costumes, and all that. money's an issue cause of the economy. but ! if i get a job, i can cover a few of my practices.

you don't know how bad i miss dance. i left a part of my life at the studio. studio is where it's at. it's always been my dream to perform on stage, and last summer is when i finally got to live that. i feel so comfortable on stage, & i haven't had that feeling for over a year. i'm dedicated & i love it. seriously, if i can't audition, ima cry ! sooooo. my focus for right now is of course school, no doubt & getting a job to cover money. i hope my parents let me audition. & i hope the economy gets better by summer because nobody knows how much i really want this.