pressure.

i'm too that point where i just wanna blow. ahhh ! today = bullllsheit. not good, period. stressed out about a lot right now. school, individual friend situations, + prom. it's all crumpled into one. & idk how to handle it.

school, really, is eating me alive. i swear. too much work. too much stress ! i can't take it. there are some classes that i'm doing well in, but some classes that i'm just slacking off in :/ rawr, idk. & plus, it's junior year. i really needa start focusing again. i can't let my grade slipp. or else, yikes.

individual friend situations, that's just all tough. some of my close friends are going through something. some won't even tell me what the hell is their problem ! & so, idk how to help. ugggh, i just hope everything turns out okay for all of them :/ btw ! imy sheryl :( hopefully she comes back soon cause i need her.

prom, my biggest mess. so, marjory & i are struggling on finding a date. dude. prom is not all that easy. the big thing is the money :( hella expensive tho, for everything. so, we're datelessss. & we don't know what to do. the clock is ticking. & it's in one month ! ahhhh. god help. i asked joerell, but he's thinking he can't go :/ i think cause of parents? ahhhhh. fml ! soooo yeah, it's all stressfull.

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youtube update: 3/30/09 - jamie

new song btw ! "gibberish" - ryan leslie, enjoy !

& what kills me still is seeing your face everyday, pretending to be okay. we always want something when it's gone.