"chasing pavements."

my head is spinning with all these thoughts in my head. so last night, wow. i stoppped one of my feelings tho, right? because, i just did. now, it's like. comin back? craaaaazy right? yeah. anyways ! this morning. man, i was havin tears while listening to music on my ipod.hmmmm, yeah. but for now, i just gotta keep my feelins on lock for someone else cause, i have toooo. but sometimes, i think. should i just let go? like, completely? you know how hard that is. he'll never look at me like that, let's face it right? cause, if i keep up with all this waiting & it never happens, i wasted time. people say don't give up, just keep it on the down low for now. & sometimes i think that's the right decision. then i'm thinkin, that's not. cause, what if i never get to where i want to be. right now, i don't know where i stand. idk tho. i'm all goood, it's just ... it'll never happen. he was never a mistake tho.

uhhJJbaby: when you gonna get your permit?
laurensunga:hmm, probably this summer.
uhhJJbaby: well when you get it gonna be drivin me and joe places right?
laurensunga: fasho ! you already know . [:
uhhJJbaby: haha disneyland?
laurensunga : disneyland, hmm. we'll see about that. when i get my liscense tho ! aha !

youtube update: uploaded some videos from a couple years back & last year. check them out?
photobucket update:
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"you is the best one, you is the key. to my heart yeah you never make me bleed. when me & you together, we would always succeed, to be the best yes you tell me im better than he. cuz I dnt play and I dnt cheat, nah im legit like my kicks man you can't even beat. like when u look at me I break necks. even ask your girl, she even gives me her checks. deng you look so good with jeans or a dress, looking so bad, all the guys can't even mess. this freestyle is so gay I can't even lie, but when im with you never tears down my eyes."
BTW ! Happy 17th Birthday Max ! (: